Don’t Cry Over Black Coffee

Diets…..not the best plan.

Shock your body into losing weight and then once you’re off you gain it all back. That being said, I try A LOT of diets. None of them really work. People say it is all about a “lifestyle” change.

But….I like Hot Funyuns and candy! People also say to eat everything in “moderation”. I’m not good at that…basically I am a vacuum.

So, I am trying a diet that has worked for me in the past and am going to try to make it a lifestyle change. Whole 30.

Basically you eat clean. No grains, no dairy, no sugar. It is hard for a person who doesn’t cook, like me. So hopefully it’ll force me to cook more and use spices besides salt and pepper. I lost 15 pounds the last time I was on it. I hope to lose 15 pounds again, by hoping night of A Year With Frog and Toad. I figured out that if I lose 4 pounds a months, two pounds a week, I can lose 192 pounds by next year. And Yes, I have that much to use cause I weigh……

Drum Roll Please…….

275 pounds

You read that right. Close to 300 pounds. I’ve ballooned for a few reasons, and most of it happened in 2015. 2015 was my year of depression. Two suicide attempts. I got placed on a bunch of different meds (did you know mood altering meds usually make you gain weight? Not helpful at all). I also tend to eat my feelings or eat when I’m bored or eat when I’m watching tv…. Basically I live to eat.

This ISN’T a weight loss blog. Each post will not be about this. But this is what I am working through right now.

THE PLAN: I am going to do Whole 30. Not to get in shape for shows or for a guy, but just for me.

I’m going to try and work out 3 times a week. This may not seem like a lot, but for someone who is sedentary at work (desk job) and goes to school (sitting in a desk) that is good. I’m in a musical where I am forced to dance, so that helps too.

Guys. I’m hoping this really works. I used to be this busy and still have time to work out, I’d wake up at five and hit the gym before school and work, and I got to my skinniest which was around 170.I wasn’t skinny but I was in better shape. But I was also 21. I had more energy then. Now I turn 28 in December and I am just tired ALL THE TIME. I don’t know how mothers can wrangle children and still workout. I hardly do anything and I need a nap.

Good news, I don’t have high blood pressure and I am not diabetic. But as I age this could change. SO, I am losing weight for my health and to look in the mirror and love myself. It is gonna be such a challenge, but I have moral support and I have confidence; what more do you need?