today is a hard day. for the first time in a while i feel like hurting myself. Just for some relief. maybe as punishment.
i got a new job which is a dream because of the pay and perks, but it is a really hard sales job. and i am not meeting my quota this month because i can’t get anyone important on the phone.
so during our meeting today i really wanted to cry. i took my laptop and went outside to do emails so i wouldn’t have to be around my team. currently i’m hiding in the bathroom because i’ve still got 3 hours left today and i am not feeling it.
my life is going well and literally this is the only bad thing, but it is killing me. i bought a car, i’m planning a trip to New York, i found weight loss pills that actually work. and my old professor said that my book is ready for publication if i go through and edit one more time!
so why am I blue? why do I want to cut myself or drink myself into oblivion?
depression, folks. she’s a bitch.